True Friendship

A lot has been going on in my life and I am beginning to think and process it all. One thing that I am really dealing with is what does true friendship mean. I mean who can you say is a true friend in your life? I know people are not perfect, but shouldn't you expect simple things out of friends, such as being there? I am the type of person who values friendship and hope that my friends do the same, but a lot of times in life I don't think that happens. I mean I feel that I put more into the relationship than I am getting out. This can hurt and it can hurt a lot. I mean I love to be there for my friends and I love to make sure that I have my friend's back, but what happens when they let you down. What happens when they choose a significant other over you??? These are some of the things that I think about when it comes to friends. I wish people in friendships and relationships start to think about how their actions affect others and then maybe you might not do some of the things that you do.

My First Post!!!

This is my first post and I am actually excited. I have been doing alot of blogging on Myspace, but kind of getting tired of that. Myspace is somewhat becoming old to me now. While on myspace I began to write random things that I thought and then writing became a type of therapy for me. I began to discuss ideas, views, pains, and struggles in my life and I really enjoyed it. It became a way for me to get things out that were on my mind. Sometimes I ramble, sometimes I make very good points, sometimes I can be judgemental, sometimes I can be very random, but at all times I am just me :)

This blog was just to get me started. I honestly don't know if I will tell anyone about it that I know, but it will be out there for those who choose to read. It is my way of letting things out :) So....I think I will start by explaing my title.

This is what goes through my mind daily. If people only knew the whole me or what goes on in my head. No, I am not psychotic, but I have lots of thoughts, dreams, and visions that most people can not grasp. I do not talk alot about things unless I feel that it is important or I truly have something to say. I can ramble about day to day happenings, but when it comes to politics, religion, values, and other issues I have so much to say, but most people are not ready. If people only knew what goes on in my life from my struggles, my pains, my joys, and accomplishments. I call myself humbly beautiful because that is what I am inside and out. I am smart, wise, beautiful, caring, and above all humble. I am no better than the next person, I am not perfect and I have my struggles and issues I deal with daily, but I am confident in who I am and I am thankful for that.

I think this is the end of my first blog... There will be many more to come, but what they will be about only time can tell...