Monday, December 17, 2012

Holiday Dilemma

Yes I am still alive.....

This is a dilemma that might be small to some, but it big to me.  (blog post spin off soon)  I am going to visit my mother and family for the holidays and my hair is an issue.....why????

This is why.....

I am really contemplating letting the tattoo be known to my mother. I am grown, but the thrashing of my mom for getting a something I have been avoiding for a year!!!

Dilemma for hair is.....

Curly will only last for so long before I put it in the ponytail poof, while straight does not always look right......

We shall see......

Monday, October 1, 2012


This morning I was looking for a post I wrote a while ago and then I looked at the last time I blogged.....JULY!!! I am not going to say I am going to get better because that might turn out to be a lie.  But I will say when I notice I don't blog I notice I don't get a lot of things out which is not good.

Life has been life, still evolving, still changing.  One good thing is that I am noticing growth which is great. I am so not the same person I use to be. I keep the good throw out the bad and learn from it.  I realize EVERYTHING happens in your life for a reason, the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I do know I am taking life one day at a time. I have my struggles and my successes, my joys and pains.  I am learning to love life and live it the best way I know how. 

Here is an updated pic of me. I really like it :-) Will I blog again.....yes, but when will that be, hopefully sooner than later. Have a blessed one!

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Although I am 31......

Those who have been following my blog for a while might remember I attempted to do a 30 things while 30 list well....was not completely successful, but made some strides. Since I am approaching my 32nd birthday in 6 weeks I decided to update my list :-)

  1. Got my tattoo! See Pic!!! Thinking about #2
  2. Got my passport AND going to Bahamas this year!!!!
  3. Still no date.....honestly giving up hope, but trying hard not to (can't keep getting disappointed)
  4. Done 30 random acts of kindness to strangers......still trying to find ways to do this :-)
  5. Reading is been slow....up to about 20. But.....several books have been downloaded on the tablet
  6. Still no real spontaneous road trip, one day!
  7. No white water rafting yet
  8. Have not applied to grad school yet.....long story
  9. Written letters, sent email to all the people I needed to. 
  10. Run a 5K, have a couple lined up for September and October
  11. Walk Music City Half Marathon.....this has been modified for the Women's in September
  12. Save X amount of money......on my way, doing better
  13. Donate hair...completed a while back, hair is long enough but won't do it again
  14. Lose at least 30 pounds....lost gained lost.....losing again!
  15. Purchase a Home......up in air, need to decide where I am going to plant my feet
  16. Become a research coordinator....Became a Clinical Trials Associate and I love it....still moving upward and excited!
  17. Travel West of the Mississippi....Going to Cali next month!!!!
  18. Purchase big ticket item for my mother....not yet
  19. Clean out my wardrobe, DONE!
  20. Visit graves of my father and sister.....still can't do it yet
  21. Ask some tough questions of a family member....still a punk
  22. Learn how to knit....stepped crocheting game up, but still don't know how to knit
  23. Write the vision plan for next big project of my life....done and it is evolving
  24. Go to a concert in a big venue......still don't like crowds of people don't think I can dot his
  25. Have my first kiss.....complicated, so I will still answer no
  26. Create a signature dish.....have a few more under my belt but not "that one"
  27. Complete a financial plan...done!
  28. Purchase a piece of artwork....not yet
  29. Learn to speak my mind to others....getting better
  30. Have Fun!!!! Of Course!

Frank Ocean's Channel Orange

This CD right here........

Okay, I have been a fan of Frank Ocean for a little while, but after his recent actions and listening to his newest cd, LOVE HIM!!!
Some of his lyrics....if not all of his lyrics are amazing to me! If you have not PURCHASED this cd I really suggest it.  A cd has not hit my soul since Ledisi's Lost & Found came out.

There are several lyrics that touch me like no one will ever no.....especially Bad Religion. 

Check it out and I promise you will not be dissapointed! is killin me!! But only a few more days till a break and hopefully in a week I will have a very interesting post ;-)

Have a fantabulous day!!!

Saturday, June 23, 2012

My Time

My time is valuable....I work two jobs and attempt to have a social life outside of work. I am very anal about time and I like for people to be on time and when they say they are going to do something at a certain time.....DO IT!!!!

I am currently attracted to someone....and he does not get this concept. And I am really trying hard....I am wondering if I am being overly anal or if I should just let it go....we shall see ;-/

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Remember to continue to smile.....

Keep smiling is what I have to tell myself.....

Today as I was working I took this picture. I have to remember to smile although things are not going the way I would like them to go....


Sunday, June 17, 2012


Well....recently I have been really wanting another tattoo!! YES the are addictive!!! I have plotted and I think I have come up with the next one. I am sticking with a heart them :-) For those who don't know I got my first tattoo this past year and I love it....see!!

You like? Well I love (finally got a pic after it has healed). Now on to my next design....

For this one I still want on my wrist, but I would have to start wearing watches again.....don't know. But I love it!!!! We shall see....

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Life and what has been happening

Remember me???? I am still alive and I am hoping this is the last time I write that I am going to do better at blogging!

Work, illness, working out, and just life have consumed me.  But I have realized that I have to make time to blog, blogging helps me get out my frustrations, my thoughts, my angers, my feelings.... A lot of my social networks have become so intermingled and this blog as one of the few places where I can just express myself freely, no judgment just be.

Few updates in life:

  1. Love my job! Working me like crazy, but I love it!!!!
  2. Started new part time job, not working as much, still getting use to it so we shall see....
  3. Weight is going DOWN!!! Still have a way to go but doing better :-)
  4. I have a guy that I have my eyes on.....we shall see. This will be a first :-/
  5. Got my passport!! (#2 on my 30 while 30 list that I FINALLY got accomplished)
Please don't give up on me blogging.....

Monday, March 26, 2012

The Movie Pariah

I went to see this movie last week and it was very eye opening. I love independent films and this one was a great one to see. I heard all the hype, but gave up on seeing it because I thought it would never come to Nashville, even though the writer is originally from the Nashville area.

To my surprise out indie movie theater here finally got it and I was so excited to see it. I actually went to see it twice (I do that a lot with movies, to catch what I missed the first time).  This movie was worth it. Why you may ask? It gave you a story of a young girl coming to terms with her sexual identity while dealing with the not being accepted by her mother. What I liked most about this film is that it did not focus on the sex aspect about her attraction to women, but her desire to be in a relationship with another girl.

She was a teenager going through a transition in her life and really had no one to talk to or confide in completely. I don't want to give any spoilers, but the movie had a few turns that I would have never gotten from the previews.

So if this movie is in your area please go see. No matter what you views are on homosexuality I think everyone can learn and take something from the movie.  I laughed, cried, and thought about several things while watching this movie. 

Friday, March 9, 2012

Faith and Science

Found this on a tumblr that I follow and had to repost!!!

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.

Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in God?

Student: Absolutely, sir.

Professor: Is God good?

Student: Sure.

Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?

(Student was silent)

Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Is Satan good?

Student: No.

Professor: Where does Satan come from?

Student: From.. God.

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student: Yes.

Professor: So who created evil?

(Student didn’t answer)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them?

(Student had no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.

Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student: No, sir, there isn’t.

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The class was in uproar)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class broke out into laughter)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.

Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!

The student's name was Albert Einstein. Brilliant. <----don't know if this is true, but I love what it is trying to get across

Friday, February 24, 2012


I am still alive and I continue to suck at blogging consistently.  I have no excuse.....I am open up blogger and I just don't have the words to express what is going on in my life right now. Life is not bad, but it is not good either.

Lots of change is happening and I honestly do not like change.....I know it is for the better, but I am never good at it.  Hope everyone is doing well.  One thing I will say is I am looking forward for the future. Change is ahead.....

Sidenote I FINALLY got my tattoo :-) Shhhhh!!!!

This is before it was healed, need to take a new picture. It is on the back of my neck so hard to take a self pic.

Look forward to writing again.....think that is a part of my problem, not letting things out.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Tagged Post

I was going through some blogs I tagged and found this great tag post at Lesapea Musings (great blog check out when you have time) so I decided to do :-)

Who is your favorite Author?
James S. Guitard

What is your favorite book?
Chocolate Thoughts
great book on the thoughts of men in different stages of their lives

What is your favorite movie?
Who's the Master?

Who is your favorite actor or actress?
Idris Elba, fell in love with him with The Wire

Who is your celebrity crush?
Michael Ealy, he is just beautiful!!!

If you could as God one question....what would that be?
Why Me?

Why did you start blogging?
Started in college to get some things out, done it on and off ever since then.

Which of the Disney Princesses are you most like?

What is your eternal age?
I guess 25 since I have been saying that is my age for the longest;-)

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Congressman John Lewis

Last night as a part of Vanderbilt University's MLK series the keynote speaker was Congressman John Lewis. He was an excellent speaker and very entertaining and informative.  To be in the same room with one of the pioneers of the Civil Rights movement was amazing to me!!!

So as I was waiting and reading on my tablet I decided to tweet what I was doing and I mentioned Congressman Lewis and to may surprise I received this to me phone as I was waiting to hear him speak.

I was like are you serious? He actually tweeted me back! Now you can say this was from one of his people, but I will continue to believe that he tweeted me :-) 

But as I sat there listening to him speak, listening to his accounts of what made him do what he did and some of the things he encountered I just sat there in awe!

There were several things that I took from his speech.
  1. He was 18 when I expressed a desire to work the movement, 18!!! What is my (your) excuse for not taking a stand for what you believe in or standing up for social injustices in the world?
  2. He worked in a movement that did great things without the Internet, without all the things we have been afforded, he was the son of a sharecropper! What is our excuse?
  3. He studied ALL religions and their methods of non-violence. He surrounded himself with people who studied and were devoted to the cause at hand. Have I (you) done that?
  4. He still believes in the ways of non violent protest, do you think I (you) could stand and take what he went through and still be able to react non-violently?
  5. We still need to foster the "beloved community" that Dr. King spoke about so often.....are we?
These are just a few things that I took from his speech. Still processing some of the things that were said and will be making steps to improve myself and my community by what I have been inspired by.