On My Mind

I have been thinking a lot lately and that can be good and bad. My faith means a lot to me and I am growing in it everyday. I am not perfect and fall short, but it is a process and I am learning and growing everyday. I am learning to love and not judge and this is hard for me. This morning I woke up and this topic was on my mind.

I was thinking about the story of Jacob and Leah. To summarize Jacob wanted Rachel, Leah's sister, but he was tricked into marrying in Leah. Jacob still wanted Rachel even though he wanted Leah. Jacob worked 7 years to get Leah once he realized he was tricked he worked 7 more years for Rachel. Although he had to work 7 more years for Rachel he still slept with Leah...and Leah birthed several children out of this. Out of the lineage of Jacob and Leah...Jesus Christ was born. Ok... that is my short synopsis. If you want to read the whole story go to Genesis 29 then to Matthew 1 for the lineage of Jesus Christ.

My question becomes should you birth children out of your own issues? Leah continued to sleep with Jacob although she knew that he did not love her. Then she names her kids out of her own issues. She finally birthed a child and did it to the glory of God. If Leah did not birth kids out of her own issues we would have never had Jesus Christ. Which brings me back to my question...

In today's society parents continuously have kids out of their own issues and put their own issues upon their children and they are jacked up, but does this mean that they should not have children?

Just needed to get that out of my head, been processing it all day. Feel free to comment.

Am I getting old???

Yesterday when I was getting ready for work I was listening to the radio and "The Stanky Leg" song come on. I don't know, but it irritated me so much!!! I then put on my facebook page as my status " is tired of songs that are dances...there was never a song called the cabbage patch, the snake, gangsta walkin, or the running man(at least I don't think)." This sparked a discussion that went on among several people all day. I was corrected and affirmed about by statements.

I hear all these songs today and I am really irritated. The stanky leg? Superman (don't get me started on this song...he was a teenager singing about this nonsense!!!) Are you serious? On my facebook page I was politely corrected about all the dance songs that we had growing up...I am only 28 years old so I am not ancient, but I do not think I felt the same way about the songs for dances as I do now. I was reminded of the tootsie roll, gangsta walking, percolator, and many other songs we had. But that seems so long ago.

I went to see Dwele this weekend and had a blast. Music was great, lyrics were great, and he put on a great performance!! I did not have to get up and do a dance, I was not sweating by the end of the night, all I had to do is sit there and enjoy the music. Not to say I don't like to dance, but when you got all these instructions and takes you forever to figure out the dance what is the point?? Give me Dwele, Chrisette Michelle, Musiq, Anthony, or Hil St. Soul any day....Didn't even list the oldies I love. To me that is real music!!

The whole convo yesterday had me really thinking am I getting old? I mentor kids and love to have fun with them, but everyday I think I am sounding more and more like my parents and it is scary!!!

Even Me!!!

A while ago I wrote I had a lot going on my mind and just could not find the words. I think the above clip expresses how I am feeling write now. Plus those boys can SANG!!! Check some of their other videos if you like...okay, back to to the topic.

We all fall short and none of us are perfect. I went shopping at Borders, my FAVORITE store, and since I am trying to stick to the budget I was browsing the bargain books and got two books for $5.00!!!! One was Michael Jordan's book...he is a last of a dying breed, and I got a book that had quotes from Martin Luther King, Jr. one of my heroes. The book opens with this statement:

Surely those who are reluctant to do what is asked of them should be the more admired. Surely those who are afraid, who question themselves, who admit their own abilities, but who, under pressure, rise to the moment, are our true paragons.

This took me back to one of my favorite scriptures Jeremiah 1. I sometimes think I am too young or do not have the talents to complete the task at hand, but I do and this is what scares me. I have these visions and goals that are outside the box and most people look at me crazy, but I know it is what I am supposed to do.

I think going back to the youtube clip. The original hymn my girl Karla use to sing at my church growing up and the words never hit me....till I saw this clip. Despite all my issues, despite all my struggles, despite my past, despite all my inefficiencies God still uses me. All I can say right now...Even Me!!!

Get Connected

One of my friends did this on facebook, but I got tired of the "25 random things about me." I thought this was cool one, but did not feel like getting asked about my response by my friends on facebook. If you take time to read ask me anything. I copied it straight from his post

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No. my parents just did not want me to have a ghetto name

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? this morning...lot going on

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? no i have horrible handwriting

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Turkey

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No, you got jokes

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? sure

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? sometimes

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? negative, I value my life

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Don't eat cereal

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? rarely wear tennis shoes, so i guess i do

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? udderly cream by Maggie Moo's

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? their smile

15. RED OR PINK? red

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? hmmm...right now my weight, working on it

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Too many people, I think the most is My Great Aunt Mary...she was so wise

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? Not really, that is why i posted on here and not facebook

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? dark blue jeans and brown loafers

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? the air conditioner...I am still at work :(

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? red orange

23. FAVORITE SMELLS? Starling's cologne....I forgot the name of it, for some reason I think it is cartier, but I know that is not right

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? the lady I interviewed for work

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? He is cool, haven't talked to him since high school

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Basketball, I love tall black men, a weakness

27. HAIR COLOR? Black.

28. EYE COLOR? Brown.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope, I have perfect visin

30. FAVORITE FOOD? crab legs or anything with crab in it

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy Endings. I am a punk when it comes to scary movies

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Rain on TVOne

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Red

34. SUMMER OR WINTER? Spring??

35. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs

36. FAVORITE DESSERT? The cheescake dessert at Sambuca's, it will bless ya!

37. IF YOU COULD MAKE A WISH... For Peace

38. WHAT (in general) IRRITATES YOU? People who can not be or start things on time, my time is valuable

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Strength to Love, Collection Martin Luther King's Sermons on Love

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? no mousepad just use the table

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? Countdown with Keith Olberman, I love him!!!
42.FAVORITE SOUND(S)? Neo-Soul

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? NYC

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? several :)

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Memphis, TN

47. WHAT WAS THE LAST NICE THING YOU DID FOR SOMEONE ELSE?I am always doing something for someone else...that is the story of my life

48. WHERE DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER? You got jokes....that is another blog in itself.

Single Ladies...Mother Wisdom

I have no words....hope you do.