Saturday, January 10, 2009

I am a Dork...So What?

This morning I work up mad early like I usually do and did some reading and organizing. I began to think to myself that I am dork and I love it. A while ago I wrote about just doing you and that is something I am trying to do daily. I am trying to be who I am rather people like it or not. Some people think it is so easy, but it is not. I mean so many people will never admit it will change who they are to please other people, it may be subtle, but they do it.

I write to get emotions and ideas out, it helps me process things. I don't know if people understand what I write or even care about what I write. My life is not always an open book and I like to keep it that way. Not everyone needs to know everything about you. One thing I am trying to do is accept who I am flaws and all (Great Beyonce' Song!). Life is short and you have to enjoy it. I love me and God loves me and that all that matters. I am not perfect, no one is, but I am great person if you take the time to know me.

So I have decided to list some qualities about me that I love and make me who I am. Some people might not like...oh well it is me :).

Oh...Picture above is an old picture of me at a friend's wedding rehearsal of my crazy moments.

On to the list of things that make me who I am
  1. I am tall, take it or leave it...I use to want to be 6 feet tall...I stopped at 5'11.5" oh well...when I have on heels it is on.
  2. I am not the smallest person in the world. Oh well. I have gained weight and not happy about it, but I am in shape and will not have a heart attack walking up stairs, when I loose the weight it will be because I have worked hard (which I am doing...slowly) not because people keep commenting on my weight.
  3. I can be needy...I give all to people, and sometimes I expect it back. Sometimes this irritates people, but I honestly care about people and their well being and wish more people did the same.
  4. Back to the title...I am a dork and I do stupid things from time to time. Too many thing to put in one bullet point, you will see evidence as you read.
  5. I love to cook and can throw down....a lot of women can not do this today, which is sad. Take out is not economical and healthy, plus homemade food taste so much better
  6. I am a facebook addict. My page has merged with personal and work and now I don't put as much on it...I tried to go a week without logging on it lasted two days.
  7. I love to read and will read almost anything. Although I am a very conservative person I will read almost anything. I have books ranging from Zane, to Zora Neale Hurston, to Michael Eric Dyson, to Harry Potter, to T.D. Jakes...and so on. I have books on sex, history, erotica, love, friendships, sports, history...I can go on.
  8. The Last Dragon is one on my favorite movies of all time!!! I have it on VHS and DVD...anytime it is on TV I have to watch!
  9. Something I rarely tell people and must people assume the contrary is that I have never been on a date or in a relationship....long story partly due to my own issues and partly due to my standards(my friends say I am too picky, I say I know what I bring to the me or beat me) I can explain more in depth...but it would take forever, ask if you want to know.
  10. I love to dance, but never in public. When I am alone or in my car with no one around it is on.
  11. first love can be an addiction for me. I love everything from gospel to gangsta rap....even some country. I am from Memphis and it comes out from time to time which my friends love to remind me
  12. I am a lazy perfectionist. I love things to be right, but sometimes I hate to work hard sometimes unless I am passionate about it.
  13. I love going to the movies by myself.
  14. I am rhythmically challenged. I can keep a beat, but my dancing and soul is on the slim sad.
  15. I do not talk to strangers...people look at me crazy when I say this, but oh well. People are special to me and just don't talk to anyone.
  16. I love cartoons...old school ones. I use to love Pepper Ann on Saturday mornings...not completely old school, but it was the last of a dying breed of cartoons.
  17. Friends think that I feel I always have to be, but 9 times out of 10 if I open my mouth to say something or voice my opinion I have done my research and I am more than likely right...try me.
  18. Friends and family are important to me. I think you have to keep good relationships with people.
  19. I question everything most times. I think we have to many people who are feed information without thinking for themselves.
  20. Most people will be shocked by what goes on in my head because they do not take the time to listen to what I have to say...inspiration for the title of my blog.
  21. I love Hannah Montana...sad I know
  22. I have come to the realization of who I love, but they do not know and honestly at this point in our lives they do not feel the same. I am ok with that. If it is meant to be it will happen. I know the person I will end up with will value me for who I am...flaws and all. If the person I love is to blind to see it, that is their loss. They will always hold a special place in the back of my heart.
Ok....I think that is all that I want to reveal now. It is time to go get my hair done and have a "ME" day. Hair, maybe pedicure, movies and a meal. I love Saturdays!!!


Anonymous said...

Dorks Unite :-)

Brothers Blog said...

I'm with you. Be you no matter the situation. Changing yourself for others never really works out anyways.

lol @ hannah montana.