Is It Me???

This weekend was rough for me. I mean I got things accomplished, but a lot of things in my mind got me to thinking....and that is not always good.  I am a person who thinks a lot and sometimes over thinks. I don't always tell people what I am thinking because they might be shocked (Hence the title of my blog).

Recently I have made some major changes in my life. Some I am still struggling with, but I know for the better. Some are shocking to me...and shocking to the few people I have told.  Lent began Wednesday and I have giving up some things and have been focusing on the direction my life is going...

What is funny since I have been doing this the strangest things have been happening. In a blog post a few weeks ago I mentioned the fact that I had never dated anyone. This sometimes irritates me, but I am dealing with it better.  This weekend, or the past few days...the strangest men have come up to me and I am like do I look like a person that is willing to date you? I am not conceited and I try to be very open minded, but when I say the guys were far from any type of person I would date. It is all not based on appearance either. One guy was buying a 40 oz at 10:30 in the morning, with gold teeth, and staring me down like I was a piece of meat while at the gas station.  One guy even though he tried was not able to make a complete sentence, and although he was in his work uniform, he was unkept...take pride in what you do!!!!

I have said all this to get back to my title...Is it me? This weekend was an abundance of triflingness (is that how you spell it?) but in general the randomnest, most "special" people approach me. Why do I attract foolishness? See the picture above...that is me, and usually how I carry myself, I don't dress "hoochie", I know that I am articulate and intelligent, and can hold a conversation. I will not go any further because I am just talking about the initial qualities you see when you first meet a person. I don't think I am stand offish.

This just bothers me....

Why Do I Blog???

I thought about this today while I was going through the many blogs that I read during the day to break the monotony of going through numerous excel spreadsheets and access databases (don't get me wrong, I love my job...but some tasks can be tedious). As I read and looked at some of my favorite blogs they all have a theme or a general method for the postings...Then I looked at my blog. What was I, or what am I trying to accomplish with the blog.

Honestly....I don't know. I have so many random thoughts in my head and I just wanted a place to get them out. I use to blog on myspace...but rarely sign on to myspace. My facebook account has intersected business and personal so I dare not post on there (too much work to restrict various parts of page).

I know sometimes people might read my post and be totally confused...sometimes I am too. But in my posting I process things out in my mind. I get things out that I am not always able to articulate to other people. I get things out without being judged for my thoughts or looked at crazy by those closest to me that truly do not understand.

So why do I blog??? I still don't have a complete answer for that. Sometimes I would like more people to read or respond to my posts...most don't. Sometimes I wish that I would tell more people that are close to me about my blog...but then I might not be as open. Sometimes I feel like I blog to vent about things that irritate me. I guess I have various reasons...guess it is a work in progress?

So...Why do you blog???