Determined

1. I will be unapologetically me
2. I will lose weight
3. I will be a better steward of my money
4. I will challenge systems that try to destroy me
5. I will love and be loved

This is just a start......

Grace and Mercy!!!!

Couldn't use one word today....these, at least for me always go together. I am so thankful for both! Things I should have received, things that I have been prevented from experiencing.... Just when I think about the grace and mercy that I have been extended in so many areas of my life??? THANK YA!!!!

This morning I work up thinking...contemplating several things. Yesterday I found out two men that I have played a part in my life have been put in hospice.  I knew both were ill, but to hear the news....just got to me.  It made me think about life, love, death. How we each process so much in this journey we all are on.  Just thoughts, hard to put in words....one day.

Love

What is love? Do you feel loved? Do you know how to love? These are questions that I have been asking myself lately. Being forever single I have often wondered am I missing something? Am I destined to never be in a relationship or loved by another human being? Then I had to pause...and say, wait, I am loved! This seems so simple, but a thought that is often overlooked. I have friends and family who love me and would do anything for me. They show me what true love is and I am thankful for that. Do I have my moments where I question if I am loved? Of course! Who doesn't? But I realize the more I focus on who loves me and who I love I don't dwell on those moments of wondering why certain people don't love me.

Blessed

Meant to write last night, but.....sleep was calling my name. One of my favorite sayings is "words mean things." I think I first heard it on my favorite podcast, The Read, stated by Crissle. It stuck out to me for so many reasons and I often use this phrase in life.

So yesterday I was thinking about the word blessed. I think it is often used in church and in life, so I looked up the definition and some definitions are as follows:

1. Held in reverence
2. Honored in worship
3. Of or enjoying happiness 
4. Bringing pleasure, contentment, or good fortune

I often say that I am blessed, but do I mean it? Do I just say it to convince myself or do I really mean it? We often say things out of habit and because they sound good, but do I really think that I am blessed???

Yes I do think I am blessed! When I think over my life and opportunities that I have had I truly am blessed. I have had hard times in life, but overall when I think about my life....I am blessed. We often take things for granted in life, and assume things that we receive or have are things we are owed or a given...they are not. So when I think about that I truly realize that I am truly blessed.  

Today (well should have been yesterday) is the start of a series....I will explain at the end, but for now...enjoy the ride!

Vacations

Realizing this week of the importance of getting away, unwinding, and stepping away from work.  It revives you, refreshes you, helps you.  Although I am back to reality and my vacation as at an end I had time to reflect and think about what is next. I am in need of a change, something new.

Let us see.....

Friends and Family

I know....I missed last week. I was travelling and spending quality time with friends and family.  Which reminded me of how much they mean to me. I often get consumed with work and attempting to figure out my next moves in life, but I was reminded this weekend to enjoy the moments you have with the people that you love and love you.  That's all I have this morning....