Day 9: My Job

Sorry....forgot to post yesterday, oops!!!

Well.... I am thankful for my job!! I love it!!! I work with cancer research, been doing it for about 6 years now. It has its ups and downs, but I can truly say I love what I do.  Makes me see the bigger picture and how things come together.  Life is short, value every moment of it!!

What does my life consist of these days????

I am still here.  I have been going through a lot lately....will elaborate more once things settle down. I really need to blog more regularly. My life consists of waking up at 4am, working out from 4:30-6am, getting ready for work and sitting in traffic from 6-8am, working from 8am-8pm (have two jobs now), and sleeping....then REPEAT!

Weekends are spent doing long walks (9 miles this weekend.....PRAY!!!!) to prepare my self for the half marathon, working with the kids on the weekends and mentoring, church on Sundays.  How long will this last???? Probably until I finish with my half marathon training.  

On top of having some personal issues that I am dealing with (like I said will blog about at a later date) life has been very interesting for me lately. One thing I can say is that I am learning a valuable lesson in this season and I know that it is preparing me for the next phase in my life.  Can't wait!

Hope you all continue to read and hopefully something I write inspires or makes you think or just gives you some entertainment during your day. 

February 9, 2010

On this day was the first time I spent 5.5 hours to go somewhere that usually takes 20 minutes. Can you say I was pissed!!!! See Nashville had snow and since it is the south several things happened.

1. People do not know how to drive in the snow
2. The city (as many times as it snows) does not know how to prepare for it.
3. Everyone freaked out and left the office when they see two flakes of snow.
4. Where I work has over 20,000 employees and in my opinion they all left at the same time and that caused it to take TWO hours to get off campus!
5. Did I mention that people here do not know how to drive in the snow??????

During that 5.5 hours I tweeted, posted pics on facebook, chatted with other people on facebook who were stuck in the snow (in same vicinity).  This helped the time go by, but still the principle of being stuck in a car and truly wasting that much time of my life (although I probably waste that time doing other things). 

Now that that horror is over. Once it starts snowing again while I am at work I am so not leaving until extra late, let the crazy people get stuck in traffic.

Just had to vent....

SN....I so want to walk the loop during my lunch break (about 3.2 miles) but the temp outside is stuck at 10 degrees, it need to at LEAST get to freezing (never thought I would say that) for me to even attempt it.

Last Days of Work.....

Yesterday was probably the last full day of my current job...I have to go through a series of exit interviews and I started yesterday. When I got out my colleagues (coworkers, boss...whatever you want to call them) had surprised me with a going away party. I was totally shocked. My boss took me out to lunch with the other researcher on her team last week and hadn't planned on anything else. 

I have mixed emotions about leaving, but I know what I am doing is what is best for me in the long run...I have had ups and downs and my current job. It was not perfect, but I loved what I did and I actually liked the people that I worked with. Didn't always agree and we all had different styles, but we worked well together. My next job is a step in the direction I want to go in my career in the long term.  I am stepping outside of my comfort zone and allowing myself to learn new skills and really get exposed to more things. 

I know have becoming increasingly frustrated with the small things that irritate me....but I honestly believe that is because I know I am leaving.  I question sometimes should I leave, but I know it is the right decision. I have to do what is best for me. Honestly this job, I don't remember applying for because I was not looking for another full time job.  I will not go until details about everything that irritates me about my current job, but trust....I have put up with a lot. 

I am moving on and excited. I will keep in contact with my old job they have taught me so much and will use those skills for a long time.  I thank God for the experience and look forward to the experiences at my new job.

Totally random free flowing thoughts right now....

Don't know if anything I write makes sense...but just typing whatever comes to mind...might not go together at all...OH WELL!!!!


Okay...I am having a very bad case of the Mondays!!!! This morning I woke up at the butt crack of dawn like I usually do, but today I felt like doing nothing...I mean I got up and cooked, but go to work...really did not want to at all. Then everything at work is irritating the crap out of me. That is not good.

I get in moods where I get tired of a job and I hope I am not getting in that mood. I love what I do and love how I help people....but today for some reason I am very frustrated. I am not looking for a new job nor do I want a new job, but I just sometimes feel that there is more that I can do. I have so many things that I want to accomplish and sometimes I question if what I am doing is what I want to do for the rest of my life? I love my coworkers and boss (most of the time) but for some reason today I will do not want to be bothered with them.

I had a great relaxing weekend and wish it could have been longer...Oh well. What did I do this weekend???? NOTHING!!!! I don't get to do that that often which was great. Did things not get done, of course...I will do them later maybe throughout the week.

I tried these new products on my hair this weekend, Mixed Chicks. I think I really like them, although I am not mixed, my hair is naturally curly and it worked wonders!!!! The shop was out of it so they gave me samples...I am on call list when the new shipment comes in. Only one store in Nashville sales it, but fortunately it is around the corner from my place!!!





I vented about my job which I try not to do, never know who is reading, but oh well. Now I will vent about people that I mentor with. Some people just frustrate me so much...I can't and will not be over every project that is set forth...do I want it to be a mess, not but it is not my responsibility to oversee everything. I use to be like let me step in, but I will not. I do not think tonight will be a mess....but if it is I won't be surprised. Order??? Is that too much to ask.

I know I should not let people get to me that don't know any better, but is it my fault that you are slow functioning. Now I always check myself because my mom says I can be stuck up and look down on people....which is not true. I can be bougie (never thought the word was spelled right) but I think all people deserve respect, but stupidness should not be tolerated. Laziness is not acceptable??? I hate to see things that I am in charge of a mess and feel that everyone should feel the same way!!! Might be wrong about my feelings....working on it, but no one else has convinced me that I am wrong.

This Sunday at church the guy the plays the piano sounded so beautiful... He is on facebook and I so want to add him, but I do not know him like that. Some of my other friends have added him, but until we are introduced formally....I will not.

Okay....I think I am done typing my random thoughts....if the layout is jacked up I will try to correct it, not very good at this. This is me procrastinating at work...Luckily a friend and I are going out to lunch!!!!

The Best Street Sweeper

I just got through watching the Michael Jackson Memorial on line and it really made me think about a lot. One thing that stood out to me was what Martin Luther King, III said. He said be the best street sweeper you can be. Whatever you do in life be the best at it...like Michael was.

Whatever issues you have with Michael you cannot deny he had talent and he perfected what he did. He was an entertainer and he was the King of Pop. He practiced, worked hard, and studied to be the best he could be.

My question is do we do that as human beings? Do we strive to be the best at whatever we do? Just because you sweep a street, or empty garbage, or might be a cashier does not mean that your work is not valuable. Every person has a role to play and we all function better when everyone does their job to the best of their ability.

Just something to think about....

Oh, one last thought. To us he was the King of Pop, but to his kids he was their father, their daddy.

Gossiping...Lesson Learned

Learned, or observed a valuable lesson over the past week. Gossiping rather spreading or listening is not cool. While I was in college I was not a gossiper, but I know everything. I would sit and listen to tons of information and would not spread it, but if asked I knew the answer. I was at one time given the nickname "Da 411." Glad those days are over...so I thought.

This past weekend I mentioned some information to a friend in casual conversation and watched it spread before my eyes into gossip, did not make me feel good at all and it was never my intention. If I had of thought about what I was saying before I said it, it would have never come out. The information was not hurtful, but it was not my place to release the information....Lesson Learned!!!

This week at work another scenario happened and I felt I was placed in an awkward position. I was not the spreader of gossip, but I listened. The fact that is was in the work place also made it weird. The awkward position I was put in still is irritating me....Did I necessarily do anything wrong no, but the actions of a gossiper affected me and not happy about it. This time I was on the outside looking in of how gossip affects people and how they spread so quickly. Just because you hear something does not mean it is true...Lesson Learned!!!

I guess the moral of this story is that gossiping is not cool and if you are passive about it is not helping the situation. I am good justifying or rationalizing almost anything I do, I can really come up with ways to justify or explain gossiping, but in the end...it is still not cool.