Saturday Morning Muses: questions

I missed last week :-( so I have put a reminder on my calendar....I need this

Yesterday I was browsing instagram and came across a picture which once again caused me to ask why me? What did I do wrong? Sometimes you can have so much confidence in yourself, but the littlest things make you question so much.

Life comes at you sometimes and you think about how things will be, how could the past be different, what is happening in the present.  I am a questioner, I question a lot period, but when life is not going how you think it should???? So many questions.....

Maybe this mood will pass, I hope it is a learning experience.

Day 21: My beverages at work..

This is my desk at work right now...... Coca Cola, Tea, and Coffee....three beverages that got me through the day. I am thankful for all of them. So needed today!!!!

Day 20: This Pic

This morning my best friend posted the pic below on my facebook wall and it honestly gave me life.....why???/ Because it was already being tested it and it was barely 8:00am!!!! Hope this pic inspires you as much as it inspired me :-)

Days 14-19: Several things......

This blogging daily is not going as planned.....

I got sick, took a few days off from work to get better and just was in a funk.   But.....Just because I was in a funk does not mean I did not have things to be thankful for.

One of my favorite quotes is....When life gives you lemons, find someone whose life gave them vodka and have a party!!!!! Makes me smile every time I say it :-)

But seriously.....when I started off on this task to blog about things I am thankful for my goal was to truly focus on the positives I have in life, but in this experience a lot of the negatives have reared their ugly head :-/

Well 6 days have gone by since my last blog of thankfulness.....so what have I been thankful for????

Thankful for the times when my hair does what it is supposed to do.....might not last long, but I do get a pic in here and there.

My smile....one thing I TRY real hard to keep on doing....not always the easiest, but sometimes when you just smile it makes you feel better.

For getting to see Melissa Harris Perry speak in person....she was AWESOME!!!!! Not the best pic in the world, but what she said....confirmation on my next moves :-)

This cd is coming out in less than a month......SUPER DUPER EXCITED!!!! For those who know me......Love the music of all these men!!!

Do you see this hair???? Love it!!!! Now I am not bold enough to do the style....but the color is giving my life!!! Will this be my next move???? We shall see.... Glad this pic gives me inspiration!

For receiving this text.....reminds me of a happier time in my life......it was time of questioning a lot, but the person who sent it to me will always have a place in my heart.


Well.....those are just a few things that I have been thankful for.  Although I am not posting everyday, I promise that when I do post I will post things I have been thankful for over the time I have been absent. 

I am in a weird place in my life right now....questioning, wondering, longing......I do not know the answers, and honestly do not know if I am meant to know the answers, but what I do know is that I am still standing, I am still progressing.  Learning each day and growing each day.......

Days 11, 12, & 13: Frank, Ledisi, and Eric.....

This weekend I was under the weather and was resting this weekend so did not blogging :-( But I do want to keep up with my being thankful.  So I am combining the posts......

The 3 names listed in the title are 3 artists whose songs are speaking to me right now......

I am thankful that their lyrics were able to say what I am not always able to say.

Frank Ocean's Bad Religion

Ledisi's We are One

Eric Roberson's At the Same Time



Day 10: This Beautiful Day!!!

Today is a beautiful day outside. The weather is amazing!!! I am thankful to just be able to go outside and enjoy it when I get off from work :-)

Day 9: My Job

Sorry....forgot to post yesterday, oops!!!

Well.... I am thankful for my job!! I love it!!! I work with cancer research, been doing it for about 6 years now. It has its ups and downs, but I can truly say I love what I do.  Makes me see the bigger picture and how things come together.  Life is short, value every moment of it!!

Day 8: This Facebook Post

This morning I was in a not so great mood.....then this pic pops up in my news feed. Seeing forever families formed was the highlight of my former career. To see how the kids grow up still make me smile :-)

Day 7: The end of today

Today was a rough day, but.....I am at rest now. I use to work from sun up to sun down, now I can come home and chill.

TV or a nice book, glass of wine and dinner are the small things I enjoy and I am thankful for at the end of the day!

Day 6: Unconditional love

I am thankful for unconditional love. There are a few people in my life that have this for me, but I love them back unconditionally and I appreciate them. To be loved without any stipulations of pretenses. LOVE IT!!! We are all flawed human beings and some people will only love you if.....which can hurt and leave a void, but unconditional love? AMAZING!!!!

Day 5: The Wire

This has to be one of my favorite shows!!! Why??? Because it solidified my love (don't judge me) for Idris Elba!!!! This scene was the scene that had be jacked up for days!! I was so drawn in by the character of Stringer Bell, see my original blog post here. He was the main reason that got me started watching the Wire and eventually hooked.

I am thankful for this show because it opened my eyes to a few things, it helped develop one of my biggest celebrity crushes to this date.  I loved how the show talked about a lot of the components that make up the drug dilemma in the United States and showed you the bigger picture.  The fourth season where they followed the kids was also a favorite of mine. Working with kids in the past stories like that I saw too often.

So yes I am very Thankful for the show The Wire and will be purchasing the entire DVD set this year so I can watch it whenever I want!!!!


Oh....and this is another favorite scene of mine....MY NAME IS MY NAME!!!!!

Day 4: Friends

I stole each picture from facebook (SHHHH!!!!)

My friends mean the world to me and I am forever thankful for each one of them.  Above are pictures of some of my dearest friends that put up with all of my ups and downs and love them all!!! (probably because they are just as crazy as I am, HA!!!) Just kidding.......or am I????  Will talk about them from left to right.....

Ashley: The picture is the most recent one I could fine (she does not do social media) We met in college, became close through church, she has been a sister, inspiration, and just a support since I have grown to love her.

Amanda: Met her a few years back and although we are complete opposites, she has taught me a lot and exposed me to things that I have been close minded to in the past. She was one of the motivators for me to get a tattoo!!!

Dorian: We have been friends since the days of band in high school. We do not talk as often, but when we do it is just like old times. She knows a lot of my ups and downs and we have had similar experiences and it is great to have someone to talk to that understands.

Eloise: Known her since I was SEVEN!!!! She is my sister from another mother....sometimes I think my mother likes her better, HA! She has been there for me and understands (at least I hope she does) by rants and ramblings. I am thankful she has been in my life and she is an inspiration!!!  Can you believe she is a MD??? I got smart friends!!!

Starling: We met freshman year of college and he is my brother!!! I can honestly say he is the only person that has seen me cry outside of family. He has been there throughout the years. We have had our moments, but he has always been there. He listens to my rants, samples my new recipes (although I think for selfish reasons), tries new restaurants with me when I get the urge.  He holds accountable and is a true support.

I guess this is a brief overview of why I am thankful for my friends. I love them all, but just highlighted a few!

Day 3: My Hometown of Memphis, TN

This blog will be short....typing from my iPhone. Thankful for being born and raised in Memphis, TN. It molded and shaped me into the person I am today.

Memphis was and is a great place and until I left the city I didn't realize the experiences and people I was able to be influenced by growing up.

Day 2: Saving our Daughters

I am thankful for the group Saving our Daughters. It is a group of kids I mentor through church. I love them!! The mentors, the girls, the lessons, and activities keep me on my toes. Yes, I mentor to give back, but I have been poured into through this group also. We have our ups and downs, but in the end we are a supportive group trying to make a difference in the lives of the next generation. 

Day 1: My tattoo

This might seem weird, but I am truly thankful for my tattoo....why? Because of what it represents and why I got it.  I use to be the person who was like I could NEVER get a tattoo, why? Because they are permanent, forever!!! Throughout my college and young adult years I was the one who got multiple piercings (oh how I miss them), but with piercings I can take them out whenever I got ready....so the nose, tongue, and eyebrow piercings are all gone :-( But a tattoo....I have to have that for LIFE???? That was always my thought process.

So once I decided to get a tattoo it took me years to decide! I wanted something that was meaningful to me and something that I could hide at work (which I really don't do anymore) yet show off when I am chill mode. So what did I get? A music heart, a heart made out of the treble and bass clefs and I LOVE IT!!! It is placed on the back of my neck so that I can cover it with me hair but when out for play and the curls are up it can be seen. 

But why this? Because I love music!!! Music gives me a place of escape and it has inspired me most of my life. I put the tattoo on my neck because when I am really stressed or irritated I rub the back of my neck and the tattoo is a reminder of what calms me and something I love. 

I am thankful for my tattoo because I had the guts to get it (but still don't have the guts to show my mother) and it is a daily reminder that things that I use to think I would never do.....I can do. It is a daily reminder that music is one place when everything else around me is in chaos....I can always escape to my music....my lyrics, my melodies, my beats. 

So if you follow me you have seen the tattoo, but if this is your first time coming across my blog, her is my tattoo that I love!!

My Tattoo!!!!!