Living Life

To the right is me....I am still alive with blue hair.  I keep saying I am going to blog more.....not happening in my life right now.  Life is moving and honestly I don't know which direction I am going in right now. I am using twitter and tumblr more. You are welcome to follow me there.

For those who follow me and I follow you...Trust I am still reading your blogs (especially The Gayte-Keeper....don't comment, but I read one of the few I just don't skim).  I read blogs read daily to make me think and challenge my way of thinking. Sometimes even for pleasure :-) but I refuse to read bossip....can't purposefully kill brain cells.

Life is a journey and mine has taken a surprising turn.  My motto in life is now becoming.....

Never say Never......

Take it as you will. But like I said check me out on tumblr and twitter.  (not ready to open up facebook to everyone).

Tumblr: Humbly Musicstyle

Twitter:  Musicstyle

Really sucking at blogging right now :-(

This morning I got up and my bed held me hostage. I could not do anything....I just stayed in my bed and did nothing.

My life has been a whirlwind and I am trying to manage my time and get use to everything. I have had ups and downs, but I am still standing. The pic to the left is my hair now, it is finally growing back so I am truly getting excited about getting my tattoo.....but that might be put on hold (will explain later).

Work, mentoring, health, and my personal life has been on struggle lately and I honestly I am just seeing the light at the end of the tunnel....hopefully.

A lot has been on my mind and my heart and sometimes I just do not know how to express it all....so we shall see.


For those who still read my blog, THANK YOU!!! I microblog on my tumblr when I can and I still tweet the random things that go on in my head (most of the time). I am hoping that life will get back to some form of normal soon.....so we shall see. My biggest hurdle right now is my health, do not know know what is going on with my skin, which has delayed my tattoo, but I am worried about how they can not give me a definite answer. I get tired of people looking at my arms and staring, I have been breaking out for a while and it is getting worse, I have medications, get shots, go to the doctor every two weeks....but it is not improving. I hope when I go again this week something can be changed, but what is being down now is not workin....so we shall see.

I still have thoughts that I want to express that I think and hope I get out more on this blog. I am slowly realizing that I have to take my mornings to blog, right now one of the few free moments I have in my day.

Deactivation of Facebook

Thursday I decided to deactivate my facebook account. This was a tough decision for me because I had reconnected with so many people I had lost contact with for a while. I enjoyed playing the games,looking at pictures, and reading the various status updates. This weekend a few people got the revelation that I was no longer on facebook and asked why....that was a tough question to answer.

I think it was because I did not have the will power just to not log and check messages and browse from time to time. I did not have the will power not play games instead of working or reading when I am supposed to. It had become an extreme distraction in the bigger picture of my life. I mean I would check when I wake up, during the day, and before I go to bed. I was not a psycho user who planned her life around facebook, but it did take a lot of my time.

There are some things I miss about facebook. Such as the random posts from some of my friends. The sharing of links and articles that I find interesting. The updates of classmates that I might not keep in tough with on the phone, but like to know how their lives are going. I enjoyed the event invites, great way to organize events among friends. 

Some things I don't miss about facebook are the stalkers who keep trying to add you, I know my page was private still can't figure out how they did that. The people who add you just to be nosey and see what is in your life. I hate when people put too much information on facebook....I mean really do I need to see pictures of your dead relative in a casket (happened several times). I hate the people who comment on everything you post, do you have the time to look at everything on faecbook?

Before I deleted my facebook page I had pretty much migrated over to twitter, less intrusive, and I don't have to check constantly. I update statuses frequently, but I don't have the urge to continue to look at every update that is posted. Most of my twitter friends are random people, although a few of the people I actually know are friends on twitter now.

Will I ever go back to facebook????? Yes, but for now it is a much needed break.  I miss it sometimes, especially on Sunday afternoons when I have nothing to do (but I guess I should be reading or studying), but I know in the long run it is a time to work on me and figure out some things in life that will take me to the next step.

Maybe I can go without Facebook???

This weekend I had a great time with friends while visiting Atlanta. What was funny for the first time in a while I really paid no attention to facebook and very little attention to twitter. I usually update my facebook status 1-2 a day and twitter a lot more, but this weekend when I checked facebook on Sunday evening I hadn't updated since Thursday. 

I use to be a constant facebook user, updating all the time and checking out all the pictures and status updates of all my friends. This weekend I had no desire to and even when I got home I did not go back to check what I missed. I am very proud of myself for this accomplishment....and it was not even on purpose.

Do I think I will ever get rid of my facebook page, doubt it, but I am not addicted to it as I use to be.  I love what facebook has done by connecting people I have not seen in years or people I have lost contact with. I think it is a great way to meet up with old classmates when you are visiting cities and to get updates on them from time to time.

I do believe I am going to continue to migrate more to twitter and maybe even let me people know about my twitter page....we shall see.

Last thing I have to slowly pull myself away from on facebook are the games. I love playing them, but need to get away from that also. We shall see :-)

To Tell or Not to Tell....That is the Question

This morning when I woke up I had an email alert that someone added me on twitter. What was interesting was it was a person that I knew in real life. This was weird to me...why??? I tell no one about my twitter page. I sometimes mention that I have one, but don't invite people to add me or tell them my screenname.  I have a few people I know in real life that are friends of mine on twitter, but we rarely talk on twitter and most of them do not use twitter anymore.  I don't have my real name on twitter and I only use my first name on twitter so when you search for me you can't find me. 

With this being said I really debated about letting people know about my blog. I mean I use to have a link on my facebook page and I use to occassionally post links to my post, but I stopped when work, family, and facebook intersected.  I sometimes have the desire to share my posts, but I don't want people reading my other posts and start asking questions.

My thoughts can be random, my thoughts can be skewed, but they are my thoughts and my feelings and sometimes I feel people are not ready to understand or process my thoughts.  The other day I added my godmother to my facebook page which was cool, I have nothing bad on the page, but a situation came up. She sent me a message (which was asked by mother looking at my page with her) asking why did I not have pictures of one of my close friends on my page (which I did). This did not bother me, but made me think....I don't want everyone close to me know everything about me. 

My recent posts have been personal. More than I have shared with a lot of people. I can only imagine what some people that are close to me would think if they read my blog and put two and two together???  I mean people have pieces to the puzzle, but the blog would be like the final piece....not cool.  In a previous blog I have talked about some of the issues I have been having and conversations with friends. I have thought about letting that friend know about the blog and it might help the person understand better what I have been trying to say lately.

I know the thoughts above are kind of random, but they all are thoughts that I have had about telling people I know about my blog and my twitter page.  Will they take the time to read it? Will they care? Don't know, but for now...my twitter and blog remain my place of freedom (as free or as open as I can be). 

Life Before Social Networking Sites

Today twitter has been down ALL morning....Now this has caused a problem....It has forced me to be more productive at work...HOW RUDE!!!!

This morning I deleted my myspace page which I have had for several years. A couple of days ago I deleted my blackplanet page which I have had since FRESHMAN year of college....that has been ages!!!! I remember the various other sites I have used in the past...collegeclub, friendster, classmates, and a few more, but now I use none of them.

What did we do before all of these social networking sites???

This is the question I have asked myself lately. I guess we actually did work. I mean all of these sites started while I was in college, but I can only imagine the distraction it would have been if they were as big then as they are big now. I know for a while my current job blocked facebook and that caused me to be more productive...not to say I am not productive now, but I know I spend more time on facebook than I should. I am thankful for the option of letting select people see that you are online (my boss is a friend on facebook...she is cool, but don't want to push it).

When my internet goes down at work I am lost (not literally, but you get my drift). So much of my work is research and looking up stuff and journals online when it goes down I am screwed...a blackberry can only do so much. Then I can't communicate through my social networking sites...not cool!!

One time I tried to go one week without checking facebook....it lasted a couple of days. I think it is a mjor way that people communicate now. I think about my blogger page and my google reader that manages my blogs I read (my job is bootleg and blocks sites...reader allows me to read the blocked sites) it is one site that I think if I tried to give up for a week it would be crazy!!! This morning when I woke up I had 40 blogs to read and that is just from about 5 hours of sleep...Imagine if I took off for a week and did not catch up on my blogs.

I was hearing about a spa or vacation resort out west that takes your blackberry and cell phone when you check in. Can you imagine no communication via email, cell phone or networking sites??? What is sad a few years ago that is how we lived.

You Like???

I was procrastinating at work today and decided to change my blog lay out...Don't know if I like...What are your thoughts? I have not figured out how to put my twitter feed back on, but still try. Love the design, but not sure if I like the ease of use...

What are your thoughts?

Please think for yourself.

I usually don't post on the weekend much, but this irritated me so bad today. Today on twitter Rev Run posted this:

"Men are like a deck of cards, u'll find an occasional KING, but most are Jacks!"

I paid no attention to it at first...then I went over to facebook and a few of my friends put this as their status...Then I began to think...There are just as many kings in a deck of cards as there is jacks....so his statement is flawed. Please correct me if I am wrong, even if I am it does not negate the point of this post.

I wrote all this to say. Just because a person says something does not mean it is true. Just because they sound good or sound smart does not mean it is right. When I was growing up my Saturday morning cartoons had an interlude that said "Great minds think alike...no great minds think for themselves."

People lets think!!!!

I am done...back to your regularly scheduled program.