It's just hair

I have recently started to get my hair done on a more regular basis and the reactions I have been getting have made me irritated. I mean it's just hair.  White people are fawning over it, black people keep saying if they had hair like mine. I mean rather her is curly or straight it is just hair.

I wish more people would appreciate their hair in whatever state it is. Straight, curly, afro, bobbed, shaved. It is all just hair.  

Life

So much on my mind......Next month I will be 35 and honestly not looking forward to it. The one thing I want I am tired of wanting and it is becoming frustrating. Something I cannot control, something I cannot make happen. Hurts......can't lie and say it doesn't trying to finish up my 35 while 35 list but I have come to a block and don't know if I can move past it. 

As I write this post I think on the fact that I am blessed and question why I let the little things get to me and how I am focusing on one thing I don't have, but attempting to remind myself of all the things I do have and it is hard to do. It is easy to say just deal.....well tired of dealing and settling or just being complacent. 

Don't know if things will change, but just needed to let this out.

 New hair color.......and actually smiling. All I got for now.

Days 14-19: Several things......

This blogging daily is not going as planned.....

I got sick, took a few days off from work to get better and just was in a funk.   But.....Just because I was in a funk does not mean I did not have things to be thankful for.

One of my favorite quotes is....When life gives you lemons, find someone whose life gave them vodka and have a party!!!!! Makes me smile every time I say it :-)

But seriously.....when I started off on this task to blog about things I am thankful for my goal was to truly focus on the positives I have in life, but in this experience a lot of the negatives have reared their ugly head :-/

Well 6 days have gone by since my last blog of thankfulness.....so what have I been thankful for????

Thankful for the times when my hair does what it is supposed to do.....might not last long, but I do get a pic in here and there.

My smile....one thing I TRY real hard to keep on doing....not always the easiest, but sometimes when you just smile it makes you feel better.

For getting to see Melissa Harris Perry speak in person....she was AWESOME!!!!! Not the best pic in the world, but what she said....confirmation on my next moves :-)

This cd is coming out in less than a month......SUPER DUPER EXCITED!!!! For those who know me......Love the music of all these men!!!

Do you see this hair???? Love it!!!! Now I am not bold enough to do the style....but the color is giving my life!!! Will this be my next move???? We shall see.... Glad this pic gives me inspiration!

For receiving this text.....reminds me of a happier time in my life......it was time of questioning a lot, but the person who sent it to me will always have a place in my heart.


Well.....those are just a few things that I have been thankful for.  Although I am not posting everyday, I promise that when I do post I will post things I have been thankful for over the time I have been absent. 

I am in a weird place in my life right now....questioning, wondering, longing......I do not know the answers, and honestly do not know if I am meant to know the answers, but what I do know is that I am still standing, I am still progressing.  Learning each day and growing each day.......

Living Life

To the right is me....I am still alive with blue hair.  I keep saying I am going to blog more.....not happening in my life right now.  Life is moving and honestly I don't know which direction I am going in right now. I am using twitter and tumblr more. You are welcome to follow me there.

For those who follow me and I follow you...Trust I am still reading your blogs (especially The Gayte-Keeper....don't comment, but I read one of the few I just don't skim).  I read blogs read daily to make me think and challenge my way of thinking. Sometimes even for pleasure :-) but I refuse to read bossip....can't purposefully kill brain cells.

Life is a journey and mine has taken a surprising turn.  My motto in life is now becoming.....

Never say Never......

Take it as you will. But like I said check me out on tumblr and twitter.  (not ready to open up facebook to everyone).

Tumblr: Humbly Musicstyle

Twitter:  Musicstyle

The Big Chop!!!

Some of you who follow my blog may know that I am working on 30 things to do while 30 list. Well yesterday I scratched off #13!!!!! That was growing my hair long enough and cutting it and donating it to Locks for Love. This was a big deal for me because I HATE cutting my hair. I love the option of having a ponytail and right now I do not. It is not as short as I thought it would be, but it is the shortest my hair has ever been. Below are the pictures of the process.

First she had to wash and flat iron my hair. This it is in a ponytail before the big chop.

She then cut the ponytail off. Still kind of shocked that much hair was left.

I then put the hair in a bag to mail off for Locks for Love!

Lastly, she styles my hair and I go home!

My hair will grow back and I have to keep telling myself that. I am more than my hair, but oh how I love my hair.  Now once my hair grows back I can accomplish #1 on my list....get a tattoo!!!

You May Not Touch!!!!

This morning I was having a conversation with a colleague at work and this random lady in our office has the nerve to just grab and touch my hair!! I don't know if I was having a bad start, but this really irritated me. She did not even ask!!! I don't know if I have written on this topic before, but if I have oh well...I found this picture a little while ago and it pretty much sums up how I feel at this point with regards to people touching my hair!

I use to be understanding and polite about it if you were nice enough to ask, but now why? Why do you want to touch my hair? It is just hair!!! My motto is that if you have hair...it is good. I will admit that my hair might not look like what most people assume about black people's hair, but it is just hair. Rather I have it straight, curly, down, up, or in a ponytail people want to touch it. I get tired of going into explanations of my ethnicity, rather I am black (which I have been asked....by a black person), or conversations about what you would do if you had my hair.

Okay I think I am done with my venting and ranting for the morning....Hope everyone can go through the day without random strangers touching their hair!!

Loving Myself today!!!

By no means am I conceited, but I am confident. Today is one of those days where I just love being me!!! I tried new products on my hair and I am loving them. Check them out... Mixed Chicks!!! I am having a productive day at work. It is Vandy's homecoming weekend and I am actually going to be social. I have a job interview next week and might be able to work ONE job and keep the lifestyle that I love. I went to the doctor yesterday and my health is good! (not great...still got to lose some weight, working on it) Nothing will stop my joy and happiness today. My goal is to approach each day with this mindset. Life is too short and too great to do otherwise. Got to focus on the positives and let everything else go. God is good! Life is good! I am good!!!

My Hair Dilemma Continues

Now that it is summer I am having issues with my hair...once again. A few months ago I decided to cut my hair and I loved it!! But now I miss it :-( , I want my hair back...I think??? When my hair is long I am able to put it in a ponytail when I work out or when I don't feel like doing it. I can have it naturally curly and all of these things I can't do now. I will give you examples of pros and cons of each style and would love your opinion...

Current Style (Short & Layered):

Pros: cute, short, easy to flat iron, color, body

Cons: no ponytail, hair natural looks crazy(too short), is in my face and makes it break out

Long & Curly:

Pros: I love curls, my beautician makes them stay, looks great on my face, ponytail capabilities

Cons: hard for me to do, sometimes curls go weird directions, frizzes unless I go to shop, sometimes curls get in the way, takes forever to do myself

Naturally Long & Curly or Crinkly (best pic I could find sorry):

Pros: long, easy to do (wash & go), ponytail looks good high up or low, no heat on hair

Cons: have to wash every twice a week, tangles, have to use moose, can be frizzy at times, can be too causal at times

Long wrapped & straight:

Pros: Manageable, cute, long, just have to wrap at night, frames my face without being all in my face, simple, ponytail capabilities

Cons: can frizz, long time to flat iron, gets plain over time, can get flat and lose bounce

Okay...would love for suggestions. I really don't know what I want to do with my hair now. Up for suggestions. Which style do you like most? Is there a combination of styles you might suggest? Let me know.

Update on life

Today I decided to write for the first time in a while. Life has been busy, but good. I have made some changes in my life. One change is my hair...You have seen the profile picture which is the first cut, which most of my friends say that it was not short at all. Now my hair is....

It has been highlighted and cut short and I love it for now...We will see how long this lasts.

I am ready for the summer and vacations so far. Atlanta and Chicago are on the radar, but if I have time and money I want to add another place. I am so up for suggestions.

Well I have to get back to work. I will be writing more and getting more of my thoughts out in the near future. Life is good and this is only the beginning!!!